I came back home after my 4 week break in Finland feeling excited, grounded and bursting with creativity and ready to follow through my new ideas.
During my break I had some huge insights into what didn’t feel good for me anymore with work, and especially with my way of working, my habits and behaviors.
3 days later I felt like I'm losing the connecting with all and go back to the same...
Because of the covid, we had not been traveling at all in 18 months.
That also meant we hadn’t met family in person in almost 2 years.
I can’t remember the last time when I had been that still for such a long time.
No wonder I had felt a bit trapped without noticing how much I was lacking social, in person connections and spending time with friends and people I know well.
Being there, connecting with my roots after such a long time was an insightful time, offering me a lot of opportunities to become aware of some of the old patterns that needed healing.
It was like my inner blinders were lifted as I became aware of some things through spending time with the family but also some of the cultural and generational patterns.
Healing or things hitting the fan is not always fun or a pleasant blissful experience like we would love them to be.
But... We can see that in a different light.
When we are ready to stop repeating the same or feel triggered by other people who are just showing us the parts of us that need attention, inner work and acceptance and healing, we can then shift the challenges to empowerment, opportunities for growth and to our own benefit.
Last year in 2020 I almost lost my business but also found out that I’m codependent people-pleaser.
The pandemia triggered a childhood trauma and motherhood had earlier triggered a mother wound, which I just hadn’t realized until I was ready to see it.
Those two big and quite painful experiences started a transformation and a deeper healing journey.
It all led me forward helping me to see my purpose, passions and missions in a new way.
New professional skills, awareness and knowledge emerged through this empowering process.
The covid, on and off restrictions, the daily routines with a toddler, and busyness had kept me stuck at my home office too much.
I didn’t see things clearly anymore and kept repeating some things that didn’t work and focused on things that made me feel drained rather than excited and energized.
I had tried doing too much and was scared to let go of the things that didn’t work
So I when I came back I was motivated to change and keep the energy high at all times while feeling grounded.
To avoid going back to the old same and ruin all the gained inspiration at my break, I wrote down a list of ideas how to change, and a whole new business approach that literally came to me in my dream.
Then I set the personal and professional boundaries that are not available and acceptable for me anymore.
Based on this I made a plan and communicated it with others.
This offers accountability but also helps to embody our personal power.
It’s common to feel super inspired on a vacation, then come back home and go back to the same familiarity if the patterns and habits are not broken through consciously and healed on an unconscious level too.
Have you witnessed this cycle too?
Lacking clear next steps and boundaries is one of the reasons why people haven’t been able to change, express themselves and follow through their passions, creativity and needs.
They often feel like others and their needs are always going first or the world is controlling them externally, and like their priorities or efforts won’t matter.
This can be changed and first thing to start with is getting clear on what is not acceptable for you anymore, work with your relationship with yourself at first and setting clear personal, energetical and professional boundaries.
Much love and gratitude, Jenni
